Lolli Doll’s Stories

That I would be good

Even if I don't care

Even if it's not fear

And I'll shed a tear

Life is about changes

People moving circles

Chasing their own tails

But they don't move anywhere

I am moving on

Life is beautiful

Without you

I am going strong

It's been too long

With you

I'm always the one

I'm always no one

You never hold me tight

You never kiss me goodnight

You never tell me it's alright

You never ever think about

Me

I know that you don't care

I know it's not fear

And I'll shed a tear

You make me so unhappy

I'm not afraid

I'm not going anywhere

I am standing still

You can't touch this

I see the colors

I see a smile

I see the sunshine

Break the clouds

I see happiness

I see love again

I see you standing

I see me walk away

'Cause you did not want me

'Cause you do not care

So now you'll never see

Me Again

It hurts
I see you walking in front of me
Just for you
I give up

I don't want to
But just as you said it,
It's better this way
For us

It still hurts
Life is cruel
I want you

Will I ever forget you?
Will these feelings ever fade?
Will I disappear?

Just for you
I give up

(Chorus)

It's all in your head

I won't give you any sleep

It's in your head

You can't get rid of me

It's in your head

Forever I'll be there

I am the one

The beautiful and bold

I decide which side you're on

I am the one

Who makes you feel

Like everything is out of control

(chorus)

Don't run away

I'll get you in your sleep

You'll see me in your dreams

Don't run away

I'll catch you eventually

I'll destroy everything

(chorus)

Look at me

Tell me you believe in me

Trust your tears

Look at me

Tell me I'm the one you need

Beg on your knees

Surrounded by the fear

I comfort you

I make you safe

Sourronded by the thoughts

I'll get you down

I won't let anybody talk

Secure is not a word

When your running

Towards a bridge

This is how it feels

When ever it

gets to much

It's all in your head...

Let me pretend

Everything is in its place

You and me

Are Okay

Let me pretend

Strangers in a common place

Words are used in a hidden maze

Looks are air like in a vacuum space

This is what my foolishness has made

I'm so sorry

I'm burning my eyes out

I'm bawling my eyes out

Unabashedly

Let me pretend

Everything is in it's place

You and me

Are Okay

Let me pretend

Hunting for a word or two

Trying to send my message to you

Weakened by my infatuation

Turning to a quiet conversation

I'm so sorry

Thinking about you

Talking about you

Unabashedly

Let me pretend

Everything is in its place

You and me

Are Okay

Let me pretend

My nerves are turning to stone

My voice is weak, it has no bones

Pathetically, my skin gets warm

I'm into you and I have no choice

Can we pretend

Everything is in its place

You and me

Are okay

Let me pretend

Every morning I wake up
to the sound
of Augustana
I put on my t-shirt,
I wash off my makeup,
All my makeup
I think of you
And the moments I wish I had with you
But your not here
I'm alone
And I don't know where
I belong

Vacker 27

I thought it would be like some kind of "awkward moment" in the car, but it was far away from anything like that!
He asked a lot of questions, felt like he was eager to know what I've been up to since last time. He also apologized for not really recognizing me at the party, but that he thought I looked familiar.
He even dared to ask me if I had someone special!!! *chocked*
I told him that I'm all free!!! - Maybe I kind of sounded "desperate", but I know that guys don't like girls who play hard to get, that confuses them. - Guys are simple creatures, we girls are the ones who makes everything so complicated!!!

He made a quick stop at the 24-hour store, then he drove me straight home.
I was surprised that he even got out of his car to walk me to the door!
So sweet... He really is charming...
"There's a party on Saturday, I was wondering... if you would wanna go? You can bring a friend, or two? It's not a big party like the last one... it's pretty small. Me, Daryn and some close friends, you probably know this girl Sarah?"
"You can count me in!", I said - Okay, I have to admit, THAT was desperate!
"Well, allright. I see you on Saturday!", he said it with the cutest smile, and gave me a hug that (felt like it) lasted forever! Then he walked back to his car and drove away.

I can not believe it!!!
I was hoping for a kiss, but I have to agree, I rather wait, I want it to be perfect!
But anyway, I was wondering, is Derek really into me, or is it just me and my imagination?
Because, isn't it strange? He just broke up with his girlfriend, who he found out, was cheating on him!!!
The last thing on my mind would be hooking-up with someone?!
But anyway, who can resist me? It's just a matter of time...

I called Danielle and told the happy news. She could not believe me!
I asked her if she wanted to come to this party he invited me to. Of course it was a stupid question! 'Cause she screamed 'Yes' without hesitation when I told her Daryn would be there. But when I told her Sarah's going to be there... her tone changed drasticly.

To shortly inform you who the hell Sarah is:
Sarah and Danielle were best friends untill she, behind Danielle's back, went on and hooked-up with Lucas (Danielles former crush) behind her back. Sarah totally knew about the crush, and just because of a stupid argument about not giving back a borrowed skirt, Sarah had to revenge somehow, and she did it in the crulest way.
But it didn't stop there...
Danielle got really upset, she filmed Sarah while getting undressed in the lockerroom, and posted it on You Tube.
You can probably imagine the rest... End of Story

"I don't know? In this case I actually rather stay home..."
"I never thought of you being such a pussy... It happened a long, looong time ago, she probably don't remeber it any more!"
"Denise, they still call her 'stripper'? She gets reminded of that everyday! And it's been about six months since I posted that video on the internet!"
"Well, I'm sorry for being optimistic! What do you want me to say?"
"Can't you just go to the party alone, I will only be in the way anyway, and Daryn still has a..."
"...Girlfiend? I know, I get it! Okay, you probably right, 'cause I get the feeling that this will be a night I will never forget, and you're not in it - no hard feelings!"
"No, I understand. Just don't forget to tell me ALL the details when you get back from the party! Promise?"
"Haha, I promise!"

I could paint you red, like the passion you feel
It might not be colorful, but at least it’d be real
And I could paint you green, like the envy you know,
When you’re all alone at night, with nowhere to go
And I could paint you grey, to show how you’re empty
To show how you don’t care
So the world can all see

And I could paint you clear,
I'd make you graceful
I'd make you beautiful
'Cause that’s what you are

And I could paint you taupe
Because they say that it’s soothing
But you’re like a drug to me
That could use some abusing
And I could paint you gold
To show you’re immortal
Would that make you honest?
Would it make you sincere?

Scarlet and Clover, all the things we talked about
Violet and green and the world in between
The grey skies in your blue eyes, broken hearts are all that you know

I could be clear
Yeah you could see through me
And I could be beautiful
Just to be yours
Just to be….

I could paint you clear,
I'd make you graceful
I'd make you beautiful
'Cause that’s what you are
And I could be clear, and I could be graceful
I swear I'd be colorful just to be yours

If I were an artist, then I could be yours

"Did my heart love till now? Forswear it sight, For I ne'er saw true beauty till this night." — Romeo